Confuzzled


Do you ever feel that you are missing the bigger picture? That you're looking at something, that in and of itself might have meaning; but you just know that there's more to it than you are getting; simply because you can't see the big picture?


That's the head space I'm in. Had a really long conversation with my boss today; and he managed to leave me in a strange place. I really wish I could see the bigger picture sometimes, but then I start to think that might be a bad idea; because I'd want to somehow feel or be responsible for it. I think I learned a bunch of 'pieces of information' but for the life of me, I have no idea how they fit into the over all scheme of things. (Assuming there is such a thing as an over-all scheme.)


However, the up-side is that it's a Friday; and by Monday maybe I'll have more perspective. In the meantime; I shall go to a pow wow. (Held by the local PCC campus.) On Monday I start my new class; and this session will be about painting with pastels; so I get to get as gloriously messy as possible. Also, I finally made it back to ballet, for the first time in weeks (nearly a month I think); and had a Fantastic class. The teacher was wonderful, I worked so hard my legs were totally useless for 24 hours; but I really felt like I had the opportunity to really play with it. There was only one place where I felt lost; and I was actually able to just let that go and have fun with the pieces that I could. What a wonderful experience to have. Now, if I can just get greedy and have more of that type of class! *g*