Ever have those moments where you suddenly realize that somehow you've had to step back from life? That you managed to stop being fully in the moment and participatory, and started auto-pilot to watch the flickering action happen on the screens? As though life were merely a movie, not a full on ride involving all senses.
I think that with all that happened at the end of the year in 2005, that I stepped back, started to watch the action through the window; and then realized that the view was awfully cramped. So, now that we're here in 2006, I want to step forward into my life again. Try and grab hold of at least something in the crazy roller coaster and try and exert some form of control over it.
This is not to say that staring in the window is bad, or even sometimes not desirable. However, life is meant to be for living, not just for watching. Hopefully I can kick the auto-pilot off and start flying again.
Posted by dancingblonde
at 6:13 PM PST
